Love

Just like every other man, I have this feeling too. But in a different way, a stronger way and a greater way than the normal man's love towards a woman. I'm writing down the whole story to the best of my knowledge and the most of my truthfulness.

2006-2007 : High school. 11th grade, busy having fun as all of my closest friends moved with me to the same school. a month and a half pass by. Standing outside the school, at a bakery, very famously known in our school as Balaji Bakery, I happen to notice this girl of the other campus with her friends. Very beautiful, cute as an angel. Couldn't take my eyes off of her. Asking my friends "Dude, who is that girl?". No one knew, later in a couple of days got to know her name. Varuna. Wanted to talk to her somehow, someway. Tried so hard, did not have the courage to. After a couple of months, while my best friend, Goutham and I were taking a walk, saw a new house in our neighborhood. Saw a girl inside. WOW! It was her! Overjoyed, I kept roaming, just to take a sight at her. Then, one fine day. The day I could never forget in my life. Goutham caught a junior of mine, who was her classmate, he had him introduce us to her. "You were the one who added me on yahoo right?" she asked, I said a yes with a shy smile. Happiness happiness all over. We chatted on yahoo messenger often, I called her on her land phone very often, just to hear her voice. We had similar tastes, similar interests, gave me a lot to smile for. Roamed near her house with Goutham, another day she came on her bicycle, and she gave that smile with a 'hey' which, still is always picturised when I think of her. There was something jumping inside me when she smiled, feeling of love. She introduced us to her mom then. Came to know that she has a boyfriend, not so shocked, because of her beauty. Talked to her boyfriend, came to know he was not so serious about her, spoke bad things about her, I didn't like it, but knew it was going to end some day. He played with Goutham and myself text messaging from a number claiming to be her. Problem became big, my friends got angry and they beat him up. Never spoke to him after that.

Weeks passed, just like I knew, it ended, her relationship. I now very badly wanted to say what she means to me. Called her on her land phone, spoke to her, was too nervous to say it, hence had a normal conversation and hung up. Another day while talking to her on the phone, she invited me to her house, no one was there, her leg was fractured. I went inside, talked to her, looked at her, was very nervous. Tried so hard to tell her I love her, but did not want to look cheap because we were alone. Days went by, talked to her very often, really addicted to her voice and her face. One day piled up all the courage to tell her what I felt for her. Called her on her land phone. "Varuna, I'm in love", I said. She asked "With who?" I said "You". She asked "Are you mad?" "No, I'm serious", I said. She hung up. Feeling great as I have made the very first proposal in my lifetime. But she didn't respond the way I wanted her to. I tried letting her know how much I loved her, she never had the ears to listen, nor the heart to understand. I completely understood, because she just had a break up. One day finally she text messaged me from her mother's mobile. We had a conversation. I said again I loved her. She stopped messaging.

2008 : First year college, very famous for being a dancer, got a few proposals, was not able to think of anyone but her. One sunny day, I was entering college, Got a text message, it was from her. Said that she got a mobile. Happiness. Messaged her the whole day sitting at the college basketball court, unmoved, bunked college. Tried messaging her many times. She did not respond a lot. Still had a few conversations on yahoo messenger and social networking sites, made it a point to meet her once a month, atleast. As it was very hard for me to meet her, being in an evening college. Met her often, just for the love I have for her smile. Reduced calling her, because her mother did not like it. Days kept going, came to know she likes dance.

2009 : Shook her hand on New Year's day. Still meeting her once a month. Her 11th grade got over. Memories striking me how bad I fell for her when I was in my 11th grade, and how the case is still the same. She started text messaging me. I told her I still love her. She said it's impossible for her to say a yes, she did not hate me nor love me, she just did not want to have a boyfriend, she just wanted to be friends. But I did not want to be friends, I tried so hard to convince her, but failed to convey what I felt for her. She didn't accept me. I tried very hard. I lost, but did not give up. Having the hope she would love me some day when she understands what I really feel for her.

Second year college. Much more famous, representing a dance company now. Adroit Dance Company. Got another best friend, Sriram. Shared with him almost everything that I shared with Goutham. He knew how mad I was, about this girl. I introduced him to her, thinking he would help in conveying what I felt for her, because I was still nervous, I still haven't perfectly conveyed what I felt for her. What I feel when she smiles. He tried, but she did not like him talking about me. He deleted her number and stopped talking to her. I felt so incomplete without her. She came in my dreams once in a while. Still kept meeting her once a month. Still having something jumping inside when I see her smile. I called her in the midnight on her birthday, she didn't answer. I messaged her at 12am. She said I wasn't the first one to wish her. Felt so bad like never before in my life.

2010 : Tried meeting her on New Year's day, was not able to. Became a professional dancer, started representing the Hips 'n' Toez Dance Company. Felt good, shared with her, just like I shared everything else in my life. But still she was not mine. I still had the part missing in life. Not able to accept someone else in my life, though got a few more offers. Yes, she was a part of my life. A dream. Started learning a style called Bboying. Started spreading the Hip Hop culture, getting famous all over the city, yet, no one meant as much as her to me. Her 12th grade got over in march. She started texting me everyday. Heights of happiness. She came to my house one day. We danced salsa. One of the best days of my life. She's the first woman I've danced salsa with, till now the last woman. Time went by, we chatted day and night, again proposed her. She again said no. Her intentions were the same. She once said if she has a boyfriend it would be me, I don't know if she meant it, but that one single message of hers, brought up light on my face. Still trying to convince her to say a yes, still trying hard, still failing, ended up saying we'll be best friends. Was not satisfied with that.

She got into college, I got into my third year. Very busy with exams every other week and projects and dance. Still tried text messaging her, she replied very rarely, almost lost contact. Was not able to meet her very often. Wished her first on her birthday, made a little card for her by myself. Very busy. Still she was in my thoughts, all the time.

2011 : Life got really busy, wishing I had more than 24 hours a day. Organizing our own show. Practicing 8 hours a day, college 6 hours. Invited her to our show. She said she would come if she had company. Spoke to her friend, she did not show any interest. Uploaded a video, Varuna did not watch. My feelings for her still going strong. I stopped telling her I love her. I wanted to meet her and propose her. For the past four years I've never been able to propose her when I met her, I've just told her over the phone and through text messages and online. My third year exams, did not talk to her. Busy studying. Exams got over. Got a job to get experience of a year. Started meeting her again. Still going crazy over her smile.Been five years now. Craving to tell her I love her on her face. Met her almost everyday as my job timings were comfortable. Everyday trying so hard to tell her. One day, took up all my courage, walked with her and told her I love her, she got angry. She doesn't understand what I felt for her. A couple of days passed. It was raining. I walked with her in the rain, wow, life could never get any better. She said I was irritating. I felt bad. But still, having the hope someday she will understand what I feel for her. I said I love her and I left home. I still go crazy, I go wild when I see her smile, still something jumps inside of me when she smiles. She still means the world to me. She's the only person on this whole planet I want to spend my life with. I still love you Varuna, I will forever do. You will someday understand what I feel for you, these many words still don't explain it perfectly.

Met with a major accident at the end of september. While starting to go out with my friend to the park for practice, my friend suddenly exclaimed that he left his mobile phone at my house. We came back and when I almost reached my house I got hit at my leg so hard that my bones broke with a sound. The first thought that came to my mind was Varuna. Wondering how to meet her, doctor said I would not be able to walk till december. I text messaged her every single day of what the doctor told me and what was happening, how much I loved her and missed her. After I got discharged from hospital in middle october, I came home and was still wishing she paid me a visit I badly wished a little care from her. But didn't. I heard from her friend that she did not like me sending her messages. I apologized, and I did not send her any more messages describing how much I love her. Still with dreams. Wish she hears.

Breaking(Bboying) and Stunting. FUCKING KNOW THE DIFFERENCE!!

Okay I'm tired of explaining this shit privately to each and every one of you who can't differentiate B-boying and stunting. B-boying, is a form of dance in the Hip-Hop culture. Which is often referred to as breaking. Well, I've seen so many people of you calling this 'stunts'. Well first know what 'stunting' means. It is just a bunch of moves that involve jumping and flipping and stuff which are used to entertain people or that are used for the fight scenes in those stupid movies. Well, B-boying is COMPLETELY FUCKING DIFFERENT! It is DANCE. And referring B-boying to stunting not only pisses me off but it is an insult to every B-boy out there to be called as a stuntman. It is important to know what an art is, and what the artist is. If you don't, better shut your asses up and fucking please don't call us stuntmen!

Let me explain this clearly. B-boys take heavy hard work preparing how to hit the beats and make it a great dance. They do on-the-spot choreography, well the term B-boy expands as Beat Boy who obviously feels the beats than just come there, do flips and falls and stuff. A B-boy is a dancer in the Hip Hop culture who dances like a dream. He has soul, he has style. He has every thing that a dancer must have. Just that he got more speed and hell lotta style and he can do stuff that many can't do. He doesn't deserve to be called a gymnast, a stuntman, or any shit else you call him as. Call him a B-boy cuz he got STYLE which the names you call him as, don't!

You call him a gymnast. Well, a gymnast just comes and does a series of backflips or fronts or holds a double-bar and does flares or hangs on a single bar and does those handstands and flips and twists(that are hard, and need heavy practice, I'm not here to shit mouth about the art gymnastics, gymnasts are great, yes they are). You can't see any B-boy doing that kinda shit. They dance, they have this style that no gymnast ever does.

You call him a stuntman. A stuntman is a person who does dangerous stunts using his vehicle or just himself who does all that for the movie purpose and he in no way is related to dancing. He is freakin dangerous and can be a great entertainer, but in no fuckin way he can be compared to a B-boy. A B-boy is a original Hip-Hop dancer. I stress on the word 'DANCER'

I refer Wiki for this.

Definition for 'stuntman':
A stunt performer or a stuntman or a daredevil is someone who performs dangerous stunts, often as a career.

These stunts are sometimes rigged so they look dangerous while still having safety mechanisms, but often they are as dangerous as they appear to be. There is an inherent risk in the performance of all stunt work in film, television and stage work. They perform for the sake of entertainment before audience or they are used in the movies or television shows. Examples of stuntmen:
Helen Gibson
Jackie Chan
Yuen Biao
Harry Houdini
Evel Knievel
Tony Jaa

Definition for Gymnastics:
Gymnastics is an activity and a sport involving performances of exercises requiring physical strength, flexibility, agility, co-ordination, balance, and grace.

B-boying:
Breaking or b-boying, commonly known as breakdancing, is a style of dance that evolved as a part of the hip-hop culture among the Black and Latino American youths in the South Bronx during the 1970s. It is danced to both hip-hop and other genres of music that are often remixed to prolong the musical breaks.
There are four basic elements which form the foundation of breaking. The first is Toprock, a term referring to the upright dancing and shuffles. The second element is the Downrock which refers to the footwork dancing that are performed on the floor. The third element is the Freeze , the poses that breakers throw into their dance sets to add punctuation to certain beats and end their routines. The fourth element of b-boying is Powermoves. These are the most impressive acrobatic moves normally made up of circular motions where the dancer will spin on the floor or in the air.
Though widespread, the term breakdancing is looked down upon those immersed in the hip-hop culture. This is because the word breakdance is a term created by the media to describe what was called as breaking or b-boying in the street. The majority of the art form's pioneers and most notable practitioners refer to the dance as b-boying.


Stunting is ENTERTAINMENT with a vehicle or one's own self which include crazy jumps or flips that look dangerous.
Gymnastics is a SPORT.
B-boying is DANCE.

Well that's it. If you still can't understand what the difference is, have a little chat with me than just go shit your mouth by calling this art by names which we B-boys consider as a shame to the art. Know something properly before you can talk about that thing. It is a pity to India that not many B-boys and B-girls(if there are any) are appreciated for their dance.

To conclude, B-BOYS ARE DANCERS AND NOT FUCKIN GYMNASTS OR STUNTMEN!!!!

Michael Jackson Haters.. Hated'ers

I normally don't find people saying "I hate Michael Jackson". I do, have heard some of my friends say, "I don't know much about Michael Jackson, so I can't say anything, I've heard that he is a great singer, dancer.. Thats it." That is really really better than those who know nothing about Michael Jackson and say they hate him.. They say "Just look at him, he doesn't look like a male at all." and get me pissed off.. Just because he keeps his face clean shaved doesn't mean he isn't a guy at all. To me and the millions of Michael Jackson lovers in the world, Michael looks very much masculin.. When I say this, they say, "Naa.. He doesn't look that good." He looks awesome. You can't find a person who looks better than him on the stage for live performances or in music videos. He takes care of his appearances and does, always look good.. Well, take it that he doesn't look good(I'm not agreeing with it, MJ haters..), do you hate a person with his appearance? I'm challenging you to deny the fact that he is talented. He is the most talented, he looks really good.. I will never say he doesn't look good..

Michael Jackson haters just don't know anything about him. He has spent millions of money for charity and loves Mahatma Gandhi.. He loves peace and has started Heal The World foundation that helps many people.. Michael Jackson's father Joe Jackson said, "He wasn't ever really interested in money. I'd give him his share of the night's earnings and the next day he'd buy ice cream or candy for all the kids in the neighbourhood." Do you find people spending the money they have earnt for charity these days? Even you won't do it, MJ hater.. Michael Jackson said to the flood victims of Germany in 2002, "I am here in the spirit with you and you are in my prayers. Remember, God is with you, and have faith in the fact that this too shall pass." I've seen lotta MJ lovers.. They tend to be good, peace loving, helping, and loving others.. MJ haters, many of them aren't.. Well, MJ haters don't give any acceptable reason for their hating.. Really..


They say MJ is a child molester. If you believe that he is when the press said he is, why don't you believe he isn't, when the press says he has been found innocent?


They say Michael Jackson is gay. He married twice, and has children, morons!! Don't you give a thought about that? In 2002 Michael Jackson said, "Once I started breaking sales records, I broke Elvis Presley's record, I broke the Beatles' record - once I started doing that, overnight they called me a freak, a homosexual, a child molester... They said I bleached my skin. They did everything they could to turn the public against me. It's a conspiracy." only for you, MJ hater..


Michael Jackson loves his children.. You can't find many men these days who take care of their children by themselves these days. He is a father and a mother for his children. So that is really good, Michael Jackson is one among they few fathers who take care of their children themselves and not leave it to their wives..


Just because he is the greatest artist in the world, and your favorite artist is no match with him, you say all that you can, bad about MJ.. Just know that, MJ lovers do love other artists.. But they just don't deny that he is greater than all the other artists they love because they know it.. Like Michael Jackson said, "So you have to deal with this jealousy. They think they're hurting you. Nothing could hurt me. The bigger the star, the larger the target. At least they're talking. When they stop talking, you have to worry.", you're jealous of Michael Jackson man!!! You can't believe everything that is on the news you see or you read.. In Michael's words, "Not everythin that is printed is gospel!!!"


They say all his fans are freaks.. They don't know how to act.. I'll tell you what, there is no other artist in the history that had made more people faint and scream so much on his appearance.. He makes his fans too much of his fans.. They call him the "God" of music.. When they have him in a position that is this high, could it be without a reason? You know that he is great, you pretend that he isn't.. I am pretty sure that when you are alone, you're applauding his singing and dancing skills watching the video of "Smooth Criminal". Elizabeth Taylor said, "There is no one that can come near him, no one can dance like that, write the lyrics, or cause the kind of excitement that he does."



If you're on orkut, go to community search and type "I hate Michael Jackson", you'll find that you are one among the 5-10 people who hate Micheal Jackson.. Go and search for "Michael Jackson", you will find thousands of communities by Michael Jackson lovers created to express their love for him. I'm not typing all these because I hate to find Michael Jackson lovers, but I can prove what ever you say, wrong as the reason why you hate Michael Jackson.. If you believed whatever the press told about him and come and talk to me about what came on the television or on the newsrpaper, I just will say the MJ's words again, "Not everything that is printed is gospel!!!" He says not to believe you hear about him unless it is from his own mouth..

Well, so I'm not surrounded by many Michael Jackson haters, only some. So I was able to type only this much. After all, who can hate the King Of Pop? Please tell me something about Michael Jackson you hate.. I'll prove that the thing you say doesn't exist or you have to be a really rude human being who hates a person who loves other human beings.. Michael Jackson lovers, if you want me to disprove and add some things on this blog that people say as their reason why they hate Michael Jackson, please tell me.. I can disprove anything that can be said bad about Michael Jackson.. Michael Jackson haters too, please tell me if you got reasons more that you'd say if asked why you hate Michael Jackson, please tell me.. I want more things in this blog and I want to love Michael Jackson more than infinity.. Now I love him to infinity :)

"Don't forget to say things that can be added, MJ hater or MJ lover.. Whoever you are"
My request : Please don't say MJ sucks, he doesn't deserve it.. He is great

Thanks to DMJ(Dinesh) for the idea,

With love for you,
With love to infinity for Michael Jackson,
Mani..

The Great One - The King Of Pop

Not just one of the music artists, he is arguably the most famous. Michael Jackson, the king of pop. He started singing and dancing at the age of 5(doesn't this remind you of a tamil proverb?! lol). He is known for doing James Brown's moves at the age of 5. He started his career in music as eleven-year old frontman of the Jackson 5 which comprised of Michael and his four brothers - Jackie, Jermaine, Marlon and Tido, and produced the catchiest tunes of the Motown history. After a six year tenure, the Jackson 5 left the Motown and signed with Sony and changed the band name to the Jacksons as the name Jackson 5 was registered with Motown. Michael Jackson released his first solo album, 'Off The Wall' in 1979 when he was 21 years old. Off The Wall was a great debut. At the age of 25, in 1983, Michael released the album 'Thriller' which is the biggest success in the music business history with the hits 'Wanna Be Starting Something', 'Thriller', 'Beat It', 'Billie Jean', 'Human Nature', 'The Lady In My Life'.. Sold over 125 million albums, took a place in the Guinness Book Of World Records as the biggest selling album of all time. Making of Thriller is the best selling video ever. Mike impressed in his every video in that album with Thriller, Billie Jean(no one could have possibly not be wondering what he was doing after seeing the moonwalk in Billie Jean Motown 25 Performance)and Beat It. In the 1980's, Michael had the most #1's than any other artist. He also became the highest-paid commercial spokesperson as Pepsi paid $12 million for 4 commercials. In a live performance of the song he sung in the commercial was the beginning of all the change in his appearance, though he got his nose done a little in the album 'Thriller'. When Mike enters the stage, they arranged it like it'll blast fire behind Mike and then he'll enter. But due to technical failure, it put Mike's hair to fire. It needed many plastic surgeries to get his appearance back. Then the skin disease vitiligo turned him white. Mike was with his new appearance in his 1987 album 'Bad'. The appearance didn't matter. Mike still produced a lot of hits in that album including 'Bad', 'Smooth Criminal', 'The Way You Make Me feel', 'Liberian Girl', 'Man In The Mirror' and 'Dirty Diana'. It won him many grammys. And in Smooth Criminal music video, Michael performing had become legendary. In 1980, with his album Thriller at #1 and Bad at #2 of the year, Mike was awarded 'The Entertainer Of The Decade'. Bad tour got into the Guinness Book Of World Records with a gross revenue of over $124 million. He donated millions to charity. He released his 4th solo album, 'Dangerous' which increased the number of world records of Mike as the album entered at #1 directly! That is the first and only album to have debuted in the #1 position. In 1995 he released the album HIStory which contained all his previous hits and new tracks as a two disc album which made up 150 minutes of music! Next album was 'Blood On The Dance Floor' which released in 1997 which was equally successful. Then the case on Mike, child molestation. Spent a few years in jail, and proved himself innocent. Then came out of jail and made the album 'Invincible' which contained the song 'Invincible' which spoke to all those who sent him to jail. It didn't become a big hit as Sony wasn't interested in promoting 'Invincible' which was clearly seen after 'You Rock My World' single was released. Mike's next album was 'Thriller 25th Anniversary Edition' which was released in 2008. It contained the original songs in the thriller album and contained songs with the big names in the charts today, like Akon, Will.i.am, Fergie, Kanye West etc. and a previously unreleased track 'For All Time'. He is said to be doing an album with Will.i.am and Akon which will be released next year. Mike said in an interview that his best is yet to come!! In spite of being the most successful person in the music business. Well, all the best in what ever you do, Mike. We fans are always there for you. Special thanks to Kaavya who reminded me that I have a blog and made me wanna write on something. Well, here go Michael's records..

Most Successful Concert Series - Guiness Book Of World Records
Michael Jackson sold out for seven nights at Wembley Stadium, London, England in the summer of 1988. A total of 504,000 people saw Michael perform July 14-16, 22-23, and August 26-27, 1988.

Biggest Selling Album Of All Time - Guiness Book Of World Records
Michael Jackson's "Thriller" Album is the biggest selling album of all time, with over 50 million copies sold worldwide. Thriller is also the biggest selling U.S album with sales of 25 million copies.

80's Most #1 Hits
By The End of the 1980's MIchael Jackson had more #1 hits than any other artist for the decade.

Awards
Michael has more awards than any other artist.

Entertainer Of The Decade
With the #1 (Thriller)and #2 (Bad) ranked albums in the world Michael was the 1980's Entertainer Of The Decade.

Most Grammy Awards - Guiness Book Of World Records
Michael won a record breaking 8 Grammy Awards in 1984, more than any other artist in one year.

Largest Contracts - Guiness Book Of World Records
$890 million (Sony Music) Contract, with prospective earnings of $1 billion.

Greatest Audience - Guiness Book Of World Records
The highest-ever viewership was 133.4 million viewers watching the NBC transmission of Super Bowl XXVII on June 31, 1993. Michael was spotlighted during the half-time peformance.

Highest-Paid Commercial Spokesperson - Guiness Book Of World Records
Pepsi paid Michael Jackson $12 million to do 4 TV commercials.

Bad Tour - Guiness Book Of World Records
Michael Jackson's world tour brought in a record gross revenue of over $124 million during September 1987-December 1988.

100 Million Records
Michael has sold over 100 million singles and albums outside of the U.S.

Billboard Charts
Michael Jackson is the first person in the 37 year history of the chart to enter at # 1, with his single "You Are Not Alone". Michael broke his previous redord held by his single "Earth Song" which debuted at #5.

Biggest Selling Video
Michael Jackson's "The Making Of Thriller" is the biggest selling video to be released by an artist.

Billboard "Hot 100" Singles Chart
Most #1 Hits by Male Artist (13)

#1 Debuts
Michael's "Bad", "Dangerous", and "HIStory" albums all debuted at #1.

Consecutive #1 Singles
Jackson 5 were the first group to ever have four consecutive #1 singles.

#1 On Charts
In 1983 Michael became the first artist to simultaneously hold the number one spots on Billboard's rock albums and rock singles charts, as well as the R&B albums and singles charts.

First Video
Michael Jackson was the first black artist to have a video aired on MTV.